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Some days are like that

Every have those seasons in life that feel relentless? I am in the middle of one of those right now and I am trying my very best to focus on the blessings in my life. Because they are many but it just seems each new day is compounding upon us what we are having to deal with.

David is at the house feeling a little loss with no where to go during the day and it breaks my heart to see him so discouraged. We are praying that the paper we need for immigration will come this week and we can get it to the office it needs to be at the beginning of next week. Then I will be calling Senator Corker's office once again to see if this law abiding, tax paying, voting AMERICAN citizen can't speed things along with the ridiculous Immigration process. For anyone who thought it was as easy as getting married for David to become a citizen, sadly you are mistaken.

I have been having some complications with my health that are concerning and I am scheduled for more test this coming week and then quite possibly ANOTHER laproscopic surgery. This will be surgery #5. All I have to say is that if all this hasn't completely eradicated my ability to have a baby that baby better appreciate my persistence!

On top of all of that we are making our plans to move and I am seeking a new job opportunity in the D.C. area. I seriously don't know how I am not having a complete melt down right now. I contribute it mostly to the fact that I am past the point of breaking and now every new thing falls into the Laughably Unbelievable Category.

This is my rant for today! Ugh! But I feel better now.

Comments

This Is Stupid said…
This is what I like to tell myself, not that it always works mind you, but I know it's true: "In 5 years I will look back at this time in my life and be very thankful for it." God is working now in ways for your good that you might not be able to see, but it is still happening. And I am not preaching to you, I just happen to be in one of those very situations. And some days I am good, and some days I just melt. And some days I laugh unbelievably =) Praying for you!!

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