From heart pouring over

I haven't been the most faithful blogger lately but I wonder sometimes to what effect I post these anyway. I mean I do love reading about other people's life and assume they like reading about mine.

I have been bottling so much up lately due to "my condition" lol. I am no 13 weeks along into my first pregnancy and have had so much on my mind but really wanted to "get out of the woods" before I told the world.

This has been one of the most difficult things to hold back from shouting. I am blown away. Literally, overwhelmed with love and emotions for this little "mocha bean" that this being knit together by the Almighty in my body right now.

I am so early on and know there is so much to experience in the coming months, years, lifetime! I am already proud of my bean. I have prayed and wanted a baby for so long. I mean there where times, pre-David, that I wanted to be a mom more than a wife. Now, I am glad that my prince charming is along for this journey.

For those of you who don't know, I have been struggling with a disease called Endometriosis since I was about 14 years old and the doctors have told me all along the way to expect delays and complications and even prepare for adoption if I really wanted children. This has been a heavy thing that I carried and a discussion that I knew at the time my future spouse would need to be aware. Thankfully, God brought the most amazing man ever into my life and we agreed right away that adoption is always a consideration and that we would consider that journey a blessing as well.

After having some difficulty earlier this year I went to see yet another specialist who decided to switch things up a bit with treatment and man oh man did it switch things up. I never expected this to be the next treatment plan but it is truly the best-both for my body and for my heart.

So here's to a new chapter of thoughts and ponderings. And to the three people that read this thanks for coming along for this ride.

Comments

This Is Stupid said…

I make 4! So happy for you guys!! Really, get ready to start a whole new precious chapter of life :)

June 19, 2012 at 4:15 PM

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