Hearts Transformed

Ever feel down? Ever feel like there is no one else who understands where you are coming from? Of course, you do. But the truth is we aren't alone. Especially now in this insta-tech (I may have coined a new phrase) world. I mean it never fails if I wake in the middle of the night or if I am spending time in the middle of the day, there is ALWAYS someone else on social media. People are posting pictures of themselves, or their food or whatever else is catching their fancy. We are sharing our opinions and sharing "news" but are we sharing our lives? I try very hard not to get caught up in the competition that is out there. I recently read a Huffington Post article belaboring the new holiday craze trends that social media sites tend to feed. It was a hilarious article but it really hit the head of a bigger issue. When we are exposed to so much more, we have to decide what to do with this information. The new ideas are a great place to draw inspiration but they can become...

Our words matter. This isn’t a new concept; nothing each of us don’t already know however it is something that I struggle with both in the words that I use and the way I allow other people’s words to affect me. If only I was truly able to follow the golden rule. I want others to treat me with respect and dignity but is that what I offer? I want others to have patience with me when I am struggling with tasks at hand or I have simply forgotten to follow through on a promise. Yet when I have to wait or feel like someone has let me down by not doing “their job” I am frustrated, offended and often self-righteous in my view of the situation. I am proud and selfish and I hate those attributes in others. I am cynical and sarcastic but demand understanding. I am broken. I live in a broken world surrounded by broken people. That seems like such a doomed existence yet I know a higher life. I know the One who offers life. I know the Prince of Peace. I know the Healer. I know the King. Why then ...

I feel so funny. I feel so blessed. I feel so tired. I feel as though there are a hundred new ideas and things stirring just under the surface of my soul. And yet I can't seem to get clarity on any of them. It is like hearing a sound without being able to distinguish from where it comes. It is a sound that peaks your interest and you want to know more yet something is blocking it from fully being heard and enjoyed. I don't know if I need lists. I love lists! Or if I need motivation. I don't know what I'm doing. But I need to do something. Make something. Paint something. Write something. Do something.

I haven't been the most faithful blogger lately but I wonder sometimes to what effect I post these anyway. I mean I do love reading about other people's life and assume they like reading about mine. I have been bottling so much up lately due to "my condition" lol. I am no 13 weeks along into my first pregnancy and have had so much on my mind but really wanted to "get out of the woods" before I told the world. This has been one of the most difficult things to hold back from shouting. I am blown away. Literally, overwhelmed with love and emotions for this little "mocha bean" that this being knit together by the Almighty in my body right now. I am so early on and know there is so much to experience in the coming months, years, lifetime! I am already proud of my bean. I have prayed and wanted a baby for so long. I mean there where times, pre-David, that I wanted to be a mom more than a wife. Now, I am glad that my prince charming is along for this...

Confessions for this Sunday. Stay alert! Watch out for your great enemy, the devil. He prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour.  I Peter 5:8 I lack self control. Or better yet I have already been given self control and I choose not to pick it up and in my hands where self control should be found; one will find fear and worry. Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life ?  Matthew 6:27 I know these verses. I have read these verses yet I do not live these verses. I am frustrated with circumstances that have greatly impacted my life and instead of standing with my husband to fight off the attacks of the devil. I allow myself to be used as a pawn to discourage him even more. What is up with that? When searching for the reference to the Matthew 6 verse I started the search by using the words, "who can add a single day" well that didn't get me to where I was going so then I just started flipping through Matthew cause I knew it w...

But seeing all this cute and wonderful stuff is really only part of the fun. When do I got pinterested enough to do it?

I worked out so hard last night that may body felt shredded when I finally laid down. I woke up today at the bright and early time of 12:47pm. Yes, that is correct I slept for about 12 and 1/2 hours last night. But my workouts are paying off. I have lost a total of 14 pounds!!!!!! I am loving this new exercise routine. I just hope once "real life" kicks in I can stick with it. I mean it is pretty easy to make it to the gym when that and waking up are about the only things you got planned for the day.