Hearts Transformed

I feel so funny. I feel so blessed. I feel so tired. I feel as though there are a hundred new ideas and things stirring just under the surface of my soul. And yet I can't seem to get clarity on any of them. It is like hearing a sound without being able to distinguish from where it comes. It is a sound that peaks your interest and you want to know more yet something is blocking it from fully being heard and enjoyed. I don't know if I need lists. I love lists! Or if I need motivation. I don't know what I'm doing. But I need to do something. Make something. Paint something. Write something. Do something.

I haven't been the most faithful blogger lately but I wonder sometimes to what effect I post these anyway. I mean I do love reading about other people's life and assume they like reading about mine. I have been bottling so much up lately due to "my condition" lol. I am no 13 weeks along into my first pregnancy and have had so much on my mind but really wanted to "get out of the woods" before I told the world. This has been one of the most difficult things to hold back from shouting. I am blown away. Literally, overwhelmed with love and emotions for this little "mocha bean" that this being knit together by the Almighty in my body right now. I am so early on and know there is so much to experience in the coming months, years, lifetime! I am already proud of my bean. I have prayed and wanted a baby for so long. I mean there where times, pre-David, that I wanted to be a mom more than a wife. Now, I am glad that my prince charming is along for this