Hearts Transformed

I have continued to have a very tiny little corner of my heel dug in about our now three year old move to Maryland. I have continued to think of Nashville as HOME. I have let a large part of my heart long for my life back there. What is so wrong with all of this? I have missed a lot of what was my present and now is missed opportunity. I was choosing not to remember the lonely times when I felt like I didn't know anyone. I forget the months when I wasn't sure how I was  going to pay rent. The truth is that there was really great times in Nashville but there were some heartache mixed in as well.  It has been a year of letting go and I haven't even seen Frozen. I am trying really hard to live in the present  I am trying really hard to remember things in totality instead of parts  Remembering isn't bad but getting stuck isn't helpful. 

I am sitting in my bed typing with tears streaming down my face and snuggling next to my sweet baby girl. It has been a difficult morning for my momma's heart. Chelsea has been diagnosed with Epilepsy . She has been having what seemed like a slight tick for almost a year and they have become more frequent and been joined by moments of pure catatonic state that last about 30 seconds. I brought up the tick with the pediatrician at her 18 month well visit but he said given her age we should just watch it and take note. Then about two months ago when we were traveling to celebrate my grandpa's 80th birthday Chels had a convulsing seizure. It was to date the worst day of my life. The seizure was accompanied by a fever and the medical team at the hospital felt confident it was a febrile seizure . Which if you don't know 1 in 10 children experience before the age of 2. My brother had experienced this when he was little and given the fact I was 16 at the time remember very clearly

There are many areas of my life that I feel I have a pretty good handle on, at least most days.  My little family is doing well, my extended family is a blessing, I have a strong belief system and friends that love me. I am doing well and trying to do good.  Here is the hang up. My two sore subjects: I have spent too much money on junk and I eat entirely too much junk. So what am I going to do? I am going to use this amazing product Plexus Slim and I am going to get everyone else to use it too.  Please check it out and get ready to be inspired. Today is December 2 2014 and 50 weeks from today I am going to be 50 pounds lighter and 50k closer to financial success! Join me! before 12/02/2014