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Let It Go

I have continued to have a very tiny little corner of my heel dug in about our now three year old move to Maryland. I have continued to think of Nashville as HOME. I have let a large part of my heart long for my life back there. What is so wrong with all of this?

I have missed a lot of what was my present and now is missed opportunity. I was choosing not to remember the lonely times when I felt like I didn't know anyone. I forget the months when I wasn't sure how I was  going to pay rent. The truth is that there was really great times in Nashville but there were some heartache mixed in as well. 

It has been a year of letting go and I haven't even seen Frozen. I am trying really hard to live in the present  I am trying really hard to remember things in totality instead of parts  Remembering isn't bad but getting stuck isn't helpful. 

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