MOPS: Grace for the Good Girl Chapter 8

Hey MOPS Mommas and anyone else that is reading this! We just finished up with Chapter 8- Picket Fences.

This chapter is all about our comfort zone. Some of us find our comfort zone pretty open and friendly as long as we are the ones in control but when someone else tries to enter through the gate to the inner most part of who we really are it is locked up like Fort Knox. And other's of us keep our distance so great from others because we don't want to risk being hurt. Which one are you?

I am definitely more towards the open circle as long as I can control the real personal stuff. I still struggle daily with trying to seem like I have it all together and trying to be sure that everyone else is pleased and happy. Funny and convicting this about this chapter is that i am not really a people pleaser at all. I am a self pleaser. I want other to be pleased with me so I will do what I think will make them the happiest with me. I do not want to disappoint others mainly because I want them to not be disappointed in me. Wow, that one is a little deep and is going to take some serious self reflection and prayer. I need to readjust my focus because once again I am realizing that no matter how I label my care for others it is still really rooted in fear and selfishness.

The one statement from this chapter that really stood out to me, and it is very similiar to another earlier statement that stood out, was page 92 halfway down the page. "And you will smile and wave from a distance, because who they think you are is infinitely more important than who you really are."

I want to truly be authentic but it is going to take some hard work.

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